@Indigoisaspookyghost
I just wanted to say thank you. I just turned 14, and have been depressed for more than a year but it got much worse recently. I never really contemplated any plans, but the ideation, and the desire to just.. not exist was there. I needed a reminder of how much my family would hurt. Because it’s easy to forget. So.. thank you.
@milkybat5008
This video always gets me and I end up crying, I love drawing and I keep most of my drawings even if they are just papers from old notebooks. My mom hates it and has thrown them away without my knowledge, sometimes I wonder if she would keep them or maybe even look at them if I wasn’t around anymore. I am so so sorry for your loss I am of the belief that art can help us look at people’s thoughts. May your daughter and brother rest easy, your project has helped me a lot on days I feel terrible.
@L.L.L.I.T
Brother, tears flowed watching this. I didn’t know I needed that. I have a few of the exact same containers… thank you for sharing. Beautiful. Gentle, loving words as always. Big hug to you.
@Li_Rat
I am crying so much and I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m new to this channel and all I have to say is you’re an amazing father. An amazing father. Keep it up!
@imjusthappytoseeyou
I would have loved to be her friend. I have no doubt in my mind she is touched by you sharing her memory with us. Grief has no cure, and eventually develops into something beautiful and intrinsic to your being. No matter your outlook on religion or the afterlife, love will always be infinite.
@ryanmackenzie6109
Oh, my love. I am so, terribly sorry for your loss. I was in your daughter's position for years. Teetering on the edge. My mother was the only thing that gave me hope to carry on. Now, I find myself more similar to your position. I lost my mother just over a year ago, and the grief still holds me by the heart. And yet still, she helps me carry on. I hope that your daughter will give you the strength you need, even if she is not here. My deepest condolences to you.
@rainedrop277
I’m afraid of opening my box that I keep for who I lost. Thank you for sharing your love for your daughter with us
@thanosfan11
amazing video, and amazing father. you're an amazing dude, man.
@Nasty012
Thank you for this video. Thank you for sharing this with us
@Tealflvrry
I lost a friend of mine to suicide a few months ago. I sometimes wish I had kept the little gifts he gave us while he was still around. Still trying to look for it though, since I know it's somewhere around the house. I've been struggling to process the feeling of grief, but I think this little "box" thing might help me a lot, so I thank you for that. I'm terribly sorry for your loss, may she rest in peace <3
@dirtyheavn
i dont think ive ever cried to a youtube video but i started crying just after 30 seconds of watching this. its probably because im only a few years older than her and have thought about suicide many times. i can never bring myself to do it though because i think of my parents and how they would feel. your daughter is so beautiful and may she rest in peace. 🙏❤❤
@chiller9901
what you're going through is not something i would wish upon anyone i'm someone who used to suffer from suicidal thoughts eventually i got better, but i'm so thankful i didn't due to videos like these i wish you so much luck upon your journey, as i'm on the verge of crying after watching this
@linarili7957
Мой дедушка умер, когда я была ещё в начальной школе. Я тогда ещё не совсем понимала, что значит смерть, да и мать до последнего скрывала случившееся. Когда я наконец узнала, я тоже собрала подобную коробку. Там лежит открытка на день рождения, которую я так ему и не подарила, несколько его старых значков, которые он мне подарил, его диски про рыбалку, слишком сильно повреждённые, поэтому я не могу даже посмотреть, что на них записано, несколько его книжек, страницы дневника, который он писал ещё до моего рождения на печатной машинке и подвеска, которую он подарил мне на день рождения, но которую я так ни разу и не надела. Когда мне тяжело, когда меня одолевает горе, я тоже заглядываю в эту коробку и вспоминаю все наши с ним счастливые дни. Прошло уже больше 10 лет, а я все ещё не могу простить себя за то, что не взяла трубку, когда он звонил за день до своей смерти. Я только приехала из другого города с танцевального конкурса и была слишком уставшая. Я думала, что просто перезвоню ему завтра, ведь у меня есть время. Но завтра он был уже мертв. Спасибо за ваше видео. Это успокаивает, знать, что кто-то переживает потерю также как я
@labuluos1162
may she forever rest in peace
@Tito_ernestito
What kills me that it's evident that you were a good father but it wasn't enough. Sorry, I am writing as a neglected child - my father used to mock me for wanting his attention. God save us, if he exists.
@KieraAlbiston
I'm still going through the grief process, losing my best friend to suicide only less than 3 years ago now. Your videos have not only made me cry but given me a beautiful perspective on what it's like to love and to remember. I still have a shrine of his favourite things, collectibles from anime we watched together, figures and plushes of his favourite character, books he introduced me to. every day i find myself longingly staring at that shelf and smiling as I remember the times we spent together. You're an inspiration, and your daughter will never be forgotten, just as I will never forget my friend.
@alidaaaaa7160
Thank you for sharing these treasures. It makes me a little emotional because I can see myself in her, and I can see my niece in her all through her interests. When I lost my uncle all I had was his old sweater which I took from his old room while visiting my grandfather, I had to move suddenly so I no longer have it, but I think it's still with my mother, I hope she found it. I think she needs it more than me. In case you are curious, that adorable rabbit you won her is named Cinnamoroll, he's a sanrio character, so made by the same people who made Hello Kitty. He has a lot of merch, maybe, if you are comfortable with it, you could get your self a Cinnamoroll keychain or something so her memories are always with you. But that's just an idea!
@LauraSchneider-qz3co
I really was touched by this post Matt. Welcome home.
@Smooper
I've never lost anybody, I'm young, I've never experienced grief. I've never experienced any situation like the horrific ones I'm sure you had to endure. Even so, I feel myself connecting to your story. It's unexplainable, unimaginable. I've never gone through anything like you have, but watching this video I had to work very hard to keep myself from crying. I connected to you through this video, it almost disturbs me. It disturbs me because you speak right to my soul in such a raw and uncomfortable way. Your words make me think and that's scary because we spend so much time trying to trap our deepest, darkest, most painful thoughts away when in reality all we need is to allow ourselves to feel them. You've helped me do that in a way, like I've said, that I can't explain. I've never experienced grief, but somehow the YouTube algorithm brought me here. I like to think that's a gift from the internet. As we all struggle through our own demons, even if we cannot relate to their situation in the slightest, all we might need is to just see someone talking about their demons to allow us to accept our own. You are doing God's work and as a religious man I like to think that it's by his design that I'm seeing your videos. I needed to hear a lot of what you have to say, I reckon everybody does. Thank you, you're truly an inspiration. And, even if you're not religious, I hope you take solace that at least in my religion, I believe your daughter is up in Heaven waiting for you. God bless you.
@angeljesso